Same old, same old.

It's sad that it has been months since I have been here and the problem is the same - Joe. What else can I say? It goes on and on. Games forever. He claims he would never want to hurt me, but all that he does is hurt me. Every day he won't just give it a chance. This is ridiculous. I need to just quit him. The tears and the never-ending hope that something that will neer happen isn't worth any of it. Maybe if I spent more time praying for him than pining after him, I would get so much further (not with him, but with my heart). I will never be able to move on unless I can let him go. Should I just be straight forward with him for the nine-hundreth time? Or do I just exit quietly? What is the best approach here? Do I leave myself wondering or do I just know in my heart that he won't come around? Terrel had the best point that when "the" guy comes around, he will put them all to shame. My heart just needs to be in the right place. I want so badly to have a family and a husband to serve. I know I have the family, but I want a home of my own. Is this so selfish?