Saturday, November 27, 2010
I'm definitely falling. Falling in love with a boy. Falling in love with an idea of a boy. Falling. That's all I can say. I want to hear it from him, that we are an item, a thing. Exclusive. He won't mess around with other girls. It's hard. He's there, I'm here. But that's what I think we need. We need to build the emotional connection, the get to know you stage. The physical connection is there for sure. Nobody could deny that. He can't deny that. But how long do you wait? It's been 7 years! He can't commit... Or can he? He owns a house. He figures stuff out, but it's hard to jump into one girl forever, especially when you can't dent she's the one. Is this what he's thinking? I wish I knew what he was thinking. I always push too hard and they run away. I don't sant him to run away. But how do I let him know what I am feeling and find out what he is feeling if I don't push a little? He's closed off a little, he doesn't share unless you push. I just don't want to go too far because I think, I know, I hope he's THE one. Help!